Wow! What.a.night!

Written on 04/02/2011

Yesterday was fun and busy and I had no complaints. Ok, maybe I had a few but who doesn’t? Our day ended with a big bunch of friends over for a BBQ. This is something Vin and I both love and it reminds me of how truly blessed I am to have the people I love and care about so much so close to me. I don’t think I could get through life without their love and encouragement.

Now. As bed time crept into sleep time my body was not having it. I began to think. Now all of us women know what happens when we start to allow our minds to think before bed. It’s like someone let open a den of wild lions in my mind! I was fighting thoughts of stress, feeling overwhelmed, my heart rate was pounding rapidly, my body began to twitch and I started to sweat. I got up to walk it off and see if maybe a chocolate chip cookie might help calm this madness happening inside my mind! It did for a moment and then it kinda sent me into overload. I RAN for the toilet. I paced my breathing and stayed stationary for a bit to see if the waves of immense nauseousness would let up. It didn’t. I gripped my stomach and hunched over to my bed. I laid in the fetal position (this always helps a tummy ache)  and laid my head on a cold spot in our covers. I began to pray. I simply began to talk to Jesus and tell Him I can’t handle everything happening right now in my life all at once. I told Him I wanted His peace and His comfort. Before I knew it I was asleep and didn’t wake up until my alarm sounded this morning. Boy was that a bad night.

Our bodies are so sensitive to stress. When we allow it in our minds it takes over. For me, it comes like a wave and washes over me. It makes me sick (literally) it prevents me from sleeping, it sends me into panic.

Why!?

Why do I do this? Why am I worried about things to come?  This morning as I came down to enjoy some coffee and opened my back door I heard birds. They were singing such lovely songs. It sounded like a jungle outside! They seem happy and carefree….

Do Not Worry (Says God)

25“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his lifeb?

28“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

 

There you have it, friends. Seek FIRST His kingdom and righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well…..

God cared enough to allow these beautiful flowers to grow healthy and strong, of course He will do the same for His sons and daughters!

 

3 Responses to “Wow! What.a.night!”

  1. Vin Thomas Says:

    April 2nd, 2011 at 7:39 am

    Shows how heavy a sleeper I am! Thanks for the encouraging post babe. I love you.

  2. emma Says:

    April 3rd, 2011 at 8:01 pm

    Phil 4:4-7.

    4 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5 Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

    This is my favorite. I cling to this in times of worry.

    For me, worry is a direct attack from the enemy. One of the things I love about this passage is that it reminds me to thank God. When I start worrying, I start thanking. I run through a mental list of all the things that God has done for me, the ways he has been faithful, big and small examples in my life. I have made lists and lists of these in my journal when the hour is late and my heart is racing.

    It is a battle for me, quite literally, to keep my mind and heart focused on the peace and provision of Christ.

  3. Kesha Says:

    April 3rd, 2011 at 9:17 pm

    Thanks for this, Emma. Glad to know I am not the only one who deeply struggles with anxiety. It's a tough battle but it gives me so much peace reading God's word and knowing His truth!

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